2 months.

I thought it had only been a couple of weeks since I had sat down and updated this, then I looked at it today and realize that it has almost been two months. Not a good job on my part, many apologies to the millions out there bummed on the lack of reading material about the boring going-ons.

There has been a lot going on I think. I have felt kind of socially introverted for the main reason that I am just trying to maintain with the family situation that I am going through. It’s hard to try to be the adult to you parents and police their behavior and their actions towards each other and towards my brother and me. Sunday morning my dad showed up on my doorstep with the “other lady” my parents are not even legally separated. I was backed into a corner and basically sucker punched in to going on a breakfast that had been set up to tell my dad he was not welcome at thanksgiving anymore on my moms side. This solidified the idea that he is not welcome at thanks giving I suppose. I just wish my dad had been more honest with me. It’s been a few days now and I still have not talked to him about what had happened. I am sure at this point he thinks he was clever in his surprise, it just was not the right time or in anyway the right way to do it. I think I haven’t approached it right now because some small part of me still wants to think it didn’t happen and it didn’t go down in as a shady manner that it did. But it happened and I was there and I just have to come to the terms and say something

I have been doing my best to clean out cobwebs and approach situations that have long since passed. I think I was trying to be polite and not cause waves by not confronting a lot of behavior that has been happening, and in the process I was not finding myself in a polite way I was finding myself a sucker that was kind of being taken for granted. On Saturday I was talking with Eric’s brother and he had mentioned to me that at a party the weekend before someone whom I have a very undefined and uncomfortable repertoire with was basically telling him (to that person Eric’s brother was essentially a stranger to them) how much I disliked them. That just isn’t right. First of all it’s not my intention to dislike them so they are kind of spreading a miscommunication. I have been trying to maintain a cordial relationship while being pushed out of a group of friends. To be honest its heart breaking and I am trying my best to clear up the matter so that this cannot be another stress added to the pile. It would just be honorable of the second party to return a phone call.

I have tried my best to keep this, as far from a place to just spew complaints, so maybe that is why I haven’t been around for so long. In all honesty who wants to sit and read about other people’s petty miseries. So I apologize if it reads that way, I do my best to keep it light but you have a period of time where you get bogged down, but if you look at the past few weeks and where I am in general things aren’t that bad. I have my own life going on in this city and on a day-to-day basis I might feel heavier with some situations but I do have some really great friends in the city and a few phone calls away.

Other things: been hanging out with bob a ton and Sonya and the queens crew. There are awesome and I am really glad to have them around right now, as well at Courtney and Mike Lavo. Missing Matty a lot and hoping the sawyer will get here soon. I miss just hanging around a lot with people you just feel comfortable and not judged by. I have been spending a lot of time with the new roommate Kristen, she is awesome. I worry that the city and the kids that she is student teaching and wearing too much on her. I hope not. I am looking forward to her hanging around on the weekends. Bob and I are planning to have a joint birthday party before I go to South Africa in December. I am a little nervous because they days are a few more that I had originally told work since I had gotten the travel plans mixed up a little bit. I hope I still have a job to come back to.

So again I will try to do a better job so that I don’t have to come back two months later with cryptic emails generalizing the shit I have focused on (see not that’s been going just what I have chosen to make a focus, bad decision!) I have a lot to look forward to. I will keep this updated as well as I can from now on. I can just take the time I would be eBay shopping and do this instead, since I have no money (hmm wonder how that happened).

End with a good note:
Sawyer is coming back
So So So amped to go to alt for a weekend in January
Making plans for dc to see Brittany
Going home this weekend with Eric to cook for my mom and just escape to upstate and apple picking