Been thinkin

Sometimes I feel like I haven't emotionally left high school in some strange subconscious way. I get tangled up in useless thoughts about groups of friends. I just don’t want to doubt myself they way some people actions make me.

I was thinking about this today in respect to an invite I received obviously on a email all list rather the selected out individually. I feel embarrassed that I never really got a chance to explain my side of a lot of mistakes I made when speaking and hanging out with them. I basically feel embarrassed that they have the wrong impression of me because I was going through a tough time.

Then you have to re-evaluate the situation and understand that you shouldn’t have to explain yourself to people who are worth it. People that are you friends take the time to understand and give you an opportunity to clarify maybe a confused state you were in. See I revert back to high school in the repsect that i don’t understand why these people (other than true friends) don’t want to give you the time to clarify and just seem to have a very bad understanding...

Rambling I know.