where do the weeks go?

I am not too sure where the weeks go. I feel like I am always writing a recap of the weekends. I suppose everyone is just working for them so that’s all that comes of interest.

Side note this week I got caught in traffic helping David move a new bed. There was all the movie stuff; little did I know they were filming spider man 3 in my own neighborhood. Swanky!

Friday- Left work early to make it home to Albany in time for my little brother’s graduation from high school. 5 1/2 hours later being stuck in every traffic nightmare you could imagine and being 1 hour late for the graduation I made it (after sprinting in heels down a about 1/4 mile) for 2 people before my brother walked across the stage. I would have been so upset if I had missed it. But I made it, literally by the skin of my teeth. It was great to see him; although we are getting closer as we get older he is still my baby brother. And family means the world. I couldn’t have missed it. I am looking forward to him coming to school in the city and maybe having the chance to get to know him more. Since we are so far in age it has been hard to do so. We are always at different points in life and kind of miss each other in the interim but I think he is am amazing kid. I just wonder sometimes if he knows that. Went to Fridays with his friends and family. Things have defiantly taken its turn withy parents. You can see the separation begin to take effect. It’s like watching someone else’s life and family and it is strange to take on a different roll in the situation. It’s never a definite understanding it’s more of an adjustment.

Saturday- took my brother to dinner at the Culinary Institute of America. AMAZING food. I have definitely developed a super huge appreciation for good cooking, thanks to Eric. It makes me excited to have him go to culinary school in the city and make me amazing food. Not that he doesn’t already. I just am super excited for him to do something he really loves to do.

Sunday- had a bbq with my family. It was hard being a super fam-oriented weekend. I was happy to see everyone but I can’t help but feel bad to keep missing people like Tommy when I go home. I guess when you don’t live somewhere it just gets harder and harder. I try my best and the most genuine intentions are always there. I just have to try harder I suppose.

Came back to Brooklyn. Added some new additions to the apartment. Its beginning to have a good feeling again. A “home” feeling. Spent the rest of the evening with Eric. Again always hard having separate schedules.

This week is already planned. I hate it sometimes when this happens but it seems to happen more often than not. Tomorrow I have dinner with my mom. Wednesday birthday dinner with Bri since I missed her real birthday on Saturday. Thursday- personal trainer and dinner with David. Somewhere in there I need some time to get my things straight. Spent the better part of tonight just in the apartment on my own cleaning and getting organized, I miss nights like this.

Missing a lot of people in the city lately, got an invitation to my old room mate from college’s graduation party in Rochester got really excited to go back and see people. Really excited. Will try my best no to leave this until Monday night again. No promises.


Congrats baby bro…

monday...

Had a quiet weekend, although I didn’t get half the things I wanted to get done done.

Friday: got home from work and met up with eric. Made him dinner, although I get afraid to do so since he is much bettering the kitchen than I am but I like to be able to do something nice for him from time to time. Made some rice, onions, spinach, and mushroom concoction and then just sat outside and relaxed for a minute. Feels like we both run in opposite directions half the time that its nice to get a minute to just have a few hours and not have 6 different places to be. Went out with Cate and her friends from work. Long and interesting evening. Ended up a little bit embarrassment that my friends had to get involved (hey at least they stuck up for me) when some girl flipped out for pushing me. Like I said interesting

Saturday: woke up pretty late. Went to 2nd street with cate to see eric at work. Had some good breakfasts. Afterwards cate and I went to Fairway, next grocery store that is open in red hook. I went there the other night when I needed groceries, since heather moved out I have been living off of eating out and with the “improvements” we are attempting to make on the apartment my wallet is not supporting the diet of take out and eat at restaurants every night very well. I don’t think I have seen so much produce since I have moved to the city, it was amazing. Picked eric up from work spent sometime with him. Been really bummed out that he is super upset with things that are going on with him. I wish I could help but in the same respect I cant get involved, but I don’t like how he is being treated. Went to a party in Green point for a friend that I had gone to elementary to high school together with. It was nice, just hung out on the roof and enjoyed the heat. Missed Henrick’s birthday party and felt bad about that. Just couldn’t stay up so late.

Sunday: Drove out to Long Island at 8 30 am. Hung out with cate on the beach. Burned my belly. Went to target on the way back. Added the additions to the home décor that was purchased at target when we got home. Made some dinner followed by a dessert of garlic bread and balsamic tomatoes (not really dessert but I love it just the same). Went for a walk and found a dead mouse under the couch. Watched Bridezillas, women are crazy I am convinced.

Long workweek. Not really that into to it. Beginning to plan my 25th birthday party (6 months in advance) but I want it to be a good one. You have to have a memorable party once every few years I am convinced. I hope this one turns out that way as well. Asked a friend to design the invites and have sent an email to a friend that works at a place where I want to have it. Things are in the plans so we will see what will happen.

On the way to the train this morning I thought about people that semi make plans with you then never follow up. Then I reminded myself that I don’t expect more form them and to stop getting my hopes up for actually catch up. Ah well another run into friend. Blah.

Allow me to reintroduce myself…

I went to go see the Roots play with mos def and a couple other performers a few weeks ago at radio city music hall. It was a pretty relaxed show. Mos Def of course did a great job, but I think I have a pretty biased opinion of that. I had thought the roots would have done more of a solo performance that they did. They more or leass acted like hosts to this show which was cool. A ton of performers that I hadn’t heard of came out, a few I would honestly like to forget as well. Then half way though they brought out Dave Chappelle, it was hilarious. He had come out last time I had gone to see Mos Def at BB Kings about a year ago and just hung out on stage. This time he did like a 10-15 minute act. And when you though that was the highlight, the roots did what they seem to usually do (at least the few times I have seen them) where they do a medley of other radio songs and they covered lil’ Kim, kanye, Biggie, and the went into a cover of Jay-z. And wouldn’t you know it he comes out and goes right into the song. The show before this was pretty mellow like I had said before and when his happened everyone just lost it. I will admit to a having a good likeness to oh lets say a 14-year-old girl. It was amazing, so excited that I had an opportunity to see him perform. Even if it was only 2 songs.

Other than that I have just been piecing the apartment together. Heather moved out and literally took every last thing. I haven’t owned much up to this point but I suppose that I going to change. Took a trip to Ikea, which I am sure many more will follow just trying to get settled. But in a weird way its kind of thinking about what is going to happen in the next year to be pouring so much money into the apartment. I want to put in a ceiling fan for the summer but I have to think about what I want to put my money into at this point. I am just slightly playing out in my head what is going to happen in the next few years to figure out what I want to do. I am excited for the new roommate. I am seriously looking forward to having what seems like a really good personality around as well as having more of an opportunity to cook vegan. Who knows…. Right.

Some how I have been the world’s busiest person. I feel like I have no time to get extra things done. I was trying to set up going to dinner last week with someone I would really like to catch up with but I just got so side tracked with the apartment and heather moving out and painting that I pulled the one thing I hate when people do. It took me 3 days to return a phone call. I hate it when people do this to me now I am totally guilty.

Started thinking this morning about how socially I feel like I have really changed. I don’t believe it has much to do with a boyfriend or anything like that matter but the city makes it a bit difficult to keep up with circles if you are not in direct contact with (i.e. neighborhood, work, or friend that work with them). I have been missing stupid things like going to shows but its the same old same thing of growing out of your social out let at the sometime most of you friends do as well. I know if I go to certain shows I will see the people I guess I grew up around (more or less saw all the time, when you cover from Albany to buffalo in going to shows when you are able to travel for them and through college you meet a few people). I suppose in come convoluted way I am just bumming out on not seeing people and not really feeling like a part of a scene with friends. I was looking though some other online journal this morning and saw some pictures and just thought to myself, “yea remember when I saw so and so a little more often, that was always a good time. Ok enough is enough just missing some old social connections and some old friends, I have work that waiting for me to do it. Just rain and random thoughts