PILLOW FIGHT!

small man big mouth

Long long time I know. The thing is I would begin to write and the in reading it after I posted it just seemed like self depreciating drivel having to do with getting over or getting on with life after a major break in romance. I got tried of hearing my own voice on the topic I suppose and didn’t want to subject it to the .5 people that read this… if there is even .5, regardless


Went to see Ian MacKaye speak last night at NYU. I was very very impressed. I have never been a person to idolize many people. Understandable you see someone like Christopher Walkin on the street and you have a “ek” type reaction. In regards to music and everything people are just people. His reaction to his celebrity was “I am just a fucking human being”. Amazing and some people in bands I think need that reality check that they are not gods. This could possibly be my derivation for not dating dues in bands on the single idea that they think they can get what ever pop girl shows up to hear them play. This idea is reinforced by A LOT of girls; I will do my best not to partake.

Anyways, back to the matter at hand, Ian MacKaye. Absolutely brilliant human being. Just such a fluid movement of thought and just such a logical approach to life. If you didn’t agree on his views you could at least see that he has a valid point in his views on it. He spoke for about 2 hours although I am pretty sure people would have stayed all night if given the opportunity. The idea of this lecture was brilliant as well. Go to the hall and just ask questions and just enjoy where the answers take you and what stories become attached. It evoked that feeling that I had been apart of something and that it was a different idea, I am by no means an anarchist or a complete go against the man kind of person, but I do enjoy an INTELLIGENT alternative way of thinking. He regaled stories of fights and skateboarding and when he had met Henry Rollins and the DC punk scene and finished with a story in which he watched bad brain literally write righbragarde. I miss that feeling, I was afraid that the excitement in even just the idea of hardcore and punk had completely grown out of me. I hope to hold on to it a little bit. Just a bit.

I was a little bummed that there were rumors that Henry was supposed to come out and speak as well. No show. I was also perturbed on the situation where you run into people that outwardly talk themselves up to the nicest person with the sweetest fucking disposition and you have been introduced multiple times to be met with a hmm I am too cool to remember who the fuck you are. It’s a great feeling let me tell you.

Saw some old friends and ran into a few college ones as well. It has been a good few days. Got to see matty back from tour and spend an unvalentines day pizza party (vegan) with him and Eric. It was great just hanging out and watching team America and choke hold in atl 10 years ago and talking to Eric about Albany hardcore when he was at school there and I was just getting into going. The night was great, the next day being not so great. I have to remind myself seriously that soy cheese is a nightmare for me in regards to heartburn. So suffered. Going to miss Vegan night tonight, I think my body needs the break and will thank me for it. Less time to hang is a bit disappointing.

Still very bummed on the big move in the spring, but at least I will have anew place to visit some old friends in the south, and maybe meet new friends from their old friend. And friends, and friends and friends. Yea confusing I know.

Still looking for jobs, going to Greece on Sunday.